to just end it all right now. Seriously. I lost my job. We now might lose our house. We're a month behind on payments. Ive applied to 80 bazillion jobs and havent heard anything yet. Everytime I wake up in the afternoon (not sleeping at night anymore so I sleep the day away) I just feel like I am going to be sick. I cant even afford to buy food for my fing dogs! OMG. I am SUCH a failure. How can someone suck at life THIS badly? HOW! OMG. My DH hates me for losing my job. He brings up EVERY FUCKING DAY how he is the only one with a job, makes me feel even more like shit. I am honestly surprised that I havent just offed myself yet. He would be so much better without me. I am literally contributing NOTHING to the house, NOTHING to his life. Im just a disgusting leech sucking him dry. I am worthless. I am nothing.