Fighting With Mom

[Another-Social-Casuality]

I actually suck. I’m a compulsive liar, a manipulative kid, I procrastinate everything, I’m also the drama king and queen of my school.

"Oh, but you have friends that like you."

What's there to like? How can that possibly be true if not even my own mom likes me? Don’t get me wrong, I know that she loves me, I’m just sick of fighting with her. It’s usually my fault anyways. I want to talk to her, but whenever I try to, she gets crazy mad, and yells at me to shut up or to get out of her face. Because I lie so much, she doesn’t trust me, and when I’m telling the truth, she calls me a liar. Then she acts likes she didn’t just hurt me two seconds later. I’m tired of pretending everything’s okay when it isn’t. I can’t stand up to her. I can’t even cry around her. If I told anyone else I doubt that would make it better. Then she’d criticize me for not telling her myself. Involving others only makes things worse.

Now my friend at school who's cutting wants to stop being my friend because she thinks I told the counselor. Even if I had, it would have been to help, but I didn't. Now I feel like crap for not telling them because i didn't help her. All the stress is piling up and...

I don't know what to do anymore

 

[Aurelia]

You're probably emotional because you can't show emotion around your mom without any sort of repercussions. And you probably lie for the same reason. It's tough growing up with a parent like that. I had to as well, and I'm screwed up in pretty much the same ways.

 

[DrownedFishOnFire]

am sorry to see you are frustrated like the boy who cried wolf thing at times.

Trust is a slow thing to be gained and earned back. What is the point of lying to start with?

Take Care