I am fighting the feelings. I have a plan. But I will not be putting it in action for another couple of weeks. But then I think why wait? I have half typed an email to uni saying I wont be able to make the appointments I have booked in this week. I want to bring my plans forward. I want to do them today. I was feeling the same yesterday. I don't know if I am feeling like I can't wait as I am pissed off (my blog post explains...it's about the psychiatrist) but I wasn't feeling like it yesterday yet the feelings of bringing the plans forward were there. I suppose this could be classed as crisis, but not in the normal sense. I mean I want to kill myself. But not today. I want to wait as it's my plan to do it in a couple of weeks. I can hardly tell anyone that though can I. "oh hi, hello, I want to kill mysef but not tonight so I need your support so I can stick to my plans of in a couple of weeks". Doesn't quite work does it??!!!