I would do it tonight, but I have a wedding to attend tomorrow and an obligation to play at church Sunday morning. You know how you will read about a guy that kills himself, and the family always says, "He struggled with depression for years, I guess the disease won." They are gonna say that about me, by next Tuesday to be sure. I am putting an end to this madness, once and for all. I can't do it anymore. And I am so sorry to my family.