Well I made a mistake at work that I can't fogive myself for. The kind of thing that would get me fired if it wasn't a job for family. I can't do this job anymore after this... I can't forgive myself for fucking up yet agtain. Either i'll be dead by my hand soon or be slowlyg rotting on the streets. There is no hope for someone that was bullied by Hitler's reincarnation to the point of never developing, and failied at every turn. I have let to many deadlines pass... I can't do that again. All I ever do is fuck up when it counts... school, athletics, freindships, fucking name it... I can't do it.