I think I've reached the end of the road this time. I've been depressed and drunk and stoned for two weeks straight and I can't stand feeling this way anymore. I can't do anything right. I can't concentrate on anything, getting up in the morning to go to work is becoming a constant struggle. My arms are cut up so badly, that I can't even make up excuses to cover for myself anymore. I'm sick of it all. Sick of crying, sick of bleeding, sick of waking up, sick of feeling. I don't want to feel anything anymore. I just want to end it now and get all this $h!t over and done with.