abused as a child, abused as an adult, left with the scars, the wounds are still bleeding, time won't heal them nothing will. Memories, flashbacks reliving the pain, remembering the time I lost my virginity I wasn't an adult, it wasn't to someone who I would love and would love me, I was 6 years old, and he was my fathers step son. I won't ever get my virginity back, I won't ever be able to accept love, care. today for the first time in 28 years I was told that they believed, spoken words..never before said, not my family, not my friends, my counsellor. do I want to survive no. I have been believed and now I can die in peace.