Do not even know where to start, but I have always lived with my grandma and for the last 5 years her health has gotten really bad. Basically that has been my job, and during that time I went back to school and got my degree, but of course I cannot find a job. So I decided to continue to go back to school for a health field degree, because there are plenty of jobs for it. This past week we had to put my granny in the hospital and the doctors are telling us that they do not think she is going to make it. The house we live in and always have is a family owned house, and she was going to put the house in my name so I could live here after she dies, but she never did and now her brother and sisters are telling me that if she does not get better that I must move out and find a place to live. I have sacrificed so much in my life, and the damage that taking care of her has done to me is more than I can put into words. It has caused my depression, caused me to lose so many friends, low self esteem, and self worth. But it was my responsibility to take care of her, because she raised me. It has always just been me and my mother doing the job, and now after everything I am being told to get out. Make this clear, I do not want the house, but I do not want to be thrown out on the street either. I wanted time to get on my feet. I have lived here forever it seems. I am 37 and it just seems my life is over. I finally had some hope with a job opening a couple weeks ago for the degree that I have, but I have called a couple of times and I still have not heard anything more so I guess it is time to give up on that one also. My mother has said I can move in with her, but she already has a full house and hers is small and she is also having financial problems. So come on lets here those positive words that some of you waste your time believing will come true. Here I am cannot find a decent job, and decent I mean more than min. wage because min. wage I still will not be able to afford rent, soon to be homeless, in a couple of weeks my savings will be gone. So broke, homeless, depressed, suicidal, and jobless. Oh BTW, did I mention the motor in my car blew up so I am having to use my mothers car, and also my financial aid for school was canceled because I already graduated with one degree. Like I told the school how is it my fault that I cannot find a job with the degree I have? They steered me toward a degree in IT with the words of "there are plenty of jobs out there for a IT job." So there you go people, now lets find the "ray of sunlight" in all of that. Oh, did I also mention I do not have a girlfriend, but of course who would waste there time with me. HAHA, I am laughing out of misery.