Finding Dignity after Suicide Attempts

[Scared & Ashamed]

I am sure I am not the first nor the last on SF who has made a suicide attempt, left the site only to fail in the attempt and crawl back to the site feeling embarassed to be back. Like some I have come and gone through four attempts and even changed usernames to try and fit back in as I needed the comfort and support of the members. I was afraid I would be rejected as being a coward for failing in the attempt or be accused of seeking attention.

None of that is true. I just want to stop the pain and have tried but have failed. SF is the only place I have found where I can read others stories and talk to others that are just like me and who understand. I want to just slip back in but it never fails, either by my own fault or due to how the site set up I get found out and its like having my clothes ripped off and I run away. Is there a dignified way to return to SF? Can I slip in a back door or should I just suck it up and walk in the front door? Anyone care to escort me?? LOL

 

[RainbowChaser]

I'm probably not going to be here much longer tbh, otherwise I'd gladly escort you back :smile:

 

[resistance]

Hey there, you have no reason to be ashamed and scared. :hug: I'm sure people here care about you and would actually be glad to hear you're ok and would welcome you back with open arms, I certainly would. Please don't hesitate to PM me if you want to chat, I don't think you're an attention seeker or anything of the sort. Take care of yourself, glad to see you're still here. :hug:

 

[Cricket31]

Why should you feel ashamed of what you have done. You did not do anything wrong. I too am a survivor of a fail suicide attempt. I tried to blow my brains out and I failed! You are not the only one. Just know that.

 

[Dragon]

Just let yourself be known, hon :smile: I'm sure a lot of people would be happy to see you alive and well.

Take care,
Fee
xxx