i guess in theory i want a relationship but when i think about it too hard i am afraid of being abused again. i realize how easy it is to meet abusers in daily life and ive even met some and had to cut off contact because they remind me so much of my abuser. the other problem is that i am terrified of rejection and so i actually dont crush easily (mainly to protect myself). i dont know how to stop this because it really ruins being able to find another person. my therapist says another relationship would help with the trauma of abuse because it would help me reshape my ideas of love and relationships but im just having a lot of trouble.