I'm not going to go into great detail but I am finding it extremely tough to keep going and when suicide enters my mind it does give me great relief.I've put it off til now after so many close shaves but it does get so hard to keep fighting.It's so tough the Bi Polar mood swings,the OCD,The Bdd the anxiety and everything else with it.So much pain and pressure and it all feels so worthless i've been doing my best to also live for others but I can't continue going on with this wrtehced pain also feeling and to me being a burden on everyone else.So often I feel everyone is better off without me around and it would make their lives and the world a much better place.It just all gets so overwhelming seriously being so close like a million times it gets so tough to keep holding off and it feels like I could go anytime as hard as i'm trying.