Everyday Im finding less reasons to stick around. I feel like people are taking me for granted. Im 26, and live alone. Don't have too many "real friends". They have ones who atleast they go out with and have fun. I feel more like an "3rd wheel" nowdays. If I kill myself, they might miss me in the short run. But long term, they will forget about me. I really wish I could just die by not commiting suicide. They say commiting suicide you go to hell. I don't believe that. To me, I feel like I am already there. Besides I feel like my life has been predetermined. Everything which happens is already planned. Maybe me dying by suicide is the last page in my life of hell.