So. I went to see the guy I like at the hospital. I am still feeling really bad and I am finding myself making plans. Last night in the middle of the night I ended up getting up and going outside for a walk - my bf thought I was going mad. I had had a couple to drink last night so wasn't thinking that much about anything going on in area. I was sat there outside and was thinking about when and how I can do it and making plans. I have an appointment with the Dr in a couple of weeks but my plabs dont really incorporate that. I am planning before then. I really don't know what to do. I have spoken to my bf about things - well sort of. Basically said to him about how I was feeling worse than I had done ever. All I got from him was well what do you want me to do. I don't know what I wanted him to do but basically said I just thought I should let you know how I feel. I don't know what else I can do now!