So tomorrow I go back to my old school for the first time in about nine months, the last semester of my sophomore year I had left to go to cyberschool due to a problem I have with an ex girlfriend. It's a lot to talk about, but in short I am destroyed by the sight of her, or anything that reminds me of her, and my subconscious will attach her face to anything I've ever seen her with or around... so I went to cyberschool, but this just put me in another realm of pain, I couldn't watch her or see what she was doing, I always wanted to know, I couldn't concentrate on my work or anything so my parents said no more. So now I have to go back to public school where I'll end up crying, puking, and more than once a week have to call my mom to come pick me up because I can't stop. She said no more this year, so I have no way out. I'd just like someone to talk to, someone who can be there to help when things to go awry, and someone who can eventually help me to my own salvation. I'm too embarrassed to talk to my friends or family about this and the way it makes me feel. The only reason I've asked for an older person, is that I'd like to feel like a stupid teenager, I know it in my mind, but I can't feel it in my heart.