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First day of the rest of my life

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Jecie, Sep 2, 2013.

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  1. Jecie

    Jecie Active Member

    I am realising something:

    - It's hard.
    - It hurts.
    - It's just a feeling.
    - It's fixable.

    Now the real stuff:

    - Right across from me sits my husband who loves me to death. I can tell him that I'm sick.
    - On my phone are the numbers of at 35 people who would come running if I say I need help.
    - On my laptop and tablet I have so many email addresses of people who would send virtual hugs.
    - I have a dedicated therapist who will help me at the drop of a hat.
    - In my heart I already know that this will get better.
    - I have a well-paying job.
    - I have been blessed with a brilliant, creative brain.
    - People regularly praise my work. I am great at my job.
    - My pets love me.
    - My parents love me.
    - My siblings love me.
    - I lost 16kg in the last year and a half and I am looking great!
    - I started exercising and it feels so good.

    Now:

    - I don't need to be angry at myself. Everybody has off days.
    - Yes, it doesn't feel good. But I bet it will better tomorrow.

    Yes, life sucks right now. It sucks because of a chemical imbalance that shadows all the good things. I can fix a chemical imbalance. I'll be fine. when I finish typing this thread, I'm going to phone my therapist and make an appointment. Then I'm going to sit down with my husband and tell him I need his help. Then I'm going to listen to his advice and take care of myself. I'm worth it.

    I love you Guys :calm:
     
  2. Psych77

    Psych77 Well-Known Member

    :arms::tears_of_joy:

    I am so happy for you. Thank you for sharing that. I think we all need to see someone who is finally winning this fight we are all fighting...just to remind us that it can be done. I know I need it.

    Keep on thinking that way. And if you can, dig a hole through that solid ground you are standing on, and pull me up through it :becky:
     
  3. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    I am glad you have so much supportive people surrounding you hun hugs
     
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