First Day On Prozac...Panic Ensues...

Discussion in 'Therapy and Medication' started by Frances M, Aug 28, 2016.

  1. Frances M

    Frances M Mountain Woman

    Hi everyone,

    I made the decision last week to go back on anti-depressants because I am really having trouble coping. I've taken Prozac before, 60mg a day for about 7 years. My doctor prescribed 10mg to start and this morning was my first dose.

    I have an issue with the base of my esophagus, it constricts when I have anxiety. It happens whenever it wants to happen which has stopped me from eating in restaurants. I would never accept a dinner invitation either. I don't eat dry food anymore, it always has to be wet or full of fat and creamy so it slides down easier. It's the anxiety related to ptsd I have that makes it worse because I could be feeling fine, then uh-oh....food is stuck. Which of course makes the anxiety worse and the constriction tighter...terrible cycle. When it happens I try to breathe deeply, hold my arms up and distract myself until the food "drops".

    Anyway...this was on my mind this morning before I took the teensy tiny little pill. I kept telling myself that it's smaller than a macaroni noodle, what am I worrying about? Guess what? It got stuck...I panicked SO BADLY. Logically I know I'm not choking and IT WILL DROP...it stayed there for 25 minutes and I felt it drop down. It took me about 3 hours to calm down, I had to keep myself ultra busy to try not to think about it.

    I called the pharmacist and she told me that I should try to increase my magnesium, which is a natural muscle relaxant. Has anyone tried that? She also told me Prozac comes in liquid, though she's not sure she can get in here. She's looking up to see if I can open up the capsule without messing with the effect.

    I have to say, I'm already feeling nervous about tomorrow. I don't know how to relax...but she told me worst case, it takes 30 minutes to dissolve, that still doesn't comfort me though!!

    I hope all this craziness is worth it and it helps me get through this rough patch!
     
  2. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    Hi there,

    I have spoken about this issue before on this forum, I have issues swallowing so I am being referred to an ear,nose and throat specialist(although my pharm thinks its an allergy cos my hands swell too). Do you have a fear? Or is it that you literally really can't swallow. It IS distressing, it takes me a while to eat cos of my fear of being choked to death. You are NOT crazy in any way, please know you aren't alone in feeling the way you do, do you feel your thoughts and emotions are validated about this? I hope it gets better for you because it is so scary to have trouble swallowing. I know how you feel x
     
  3. Frances M

    Frances M Mountain Woman

    Hi Petal,

    I've had this issue since I can remember and I'm well aware of the reason. Without getting into it, I was terribly abused as a child and walked on anxiety-ridden eggshells since the age of about 8. That's when it all started. I've seen gastroenterologists, nutritionists, and taken allergy tests. There is no physical issue, it's all anxiety-related. I even had gastroscopies....omg...talk about trauma having that tube down your throat when you're alert and awake...3 of those and they found nothing.

    I remember the problem ceasing when I was on meds before. Mind you, I was very doped up, so anxiety wasn't an issue, and the constriction wasn't an issue either. And really, it's not a fear of choking or anything like that. I could be happy as a clam, eating something then suddenly I feel that heaviness under my ribs and nothing else will go down until it drops. I can swallow okay, it's just when it hits the bottom I have trouble. I rack my brains trying to figure out what the heck is causing the anxiety when I feel okay on the outside. That's the ptsd I suppose.

    I can go weeks without an issue, but as soon as I feel any emotional stress, it's like I know it'll happen and it makes it all worse. Yes, it is distressing. I'm sorry you have to go through that too, and I have fingers crossed for you that it is an allergy because then you have a way to manage it!

    I'm hoping the pharmacist can locate the liquid version of Prozac, if not I have to try again tomorrow I guess. I think that with time, I'll realize I can take this pill and hopefully I won't have fear attached to it.
     
  4. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Alumni SF Supporter

    I see, I understand now. It's anxiety in some form. I am so genuinely sorry to hear you endured abuse as a child, no child should have to go through that, but look at you now, you are amazing and an inspiration to us here :) Be proud of yourself for getting this far. I wish you the best of luck with prozac, I know a few people it has helped. I hope you can get it in liquid form! Best of luck Frances :)
     
  5. Frances M

    Frances M Mountain Woman

    Thank you so much Petal :)

    Prozac helped me before and I don't intend to use it too long, just for a year or so until things at home start to improve for me. Still waiting on my pharmacist's call!
     
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  6. Frances M

    Frances M Mountain Woman

    I'm a little amazed, I took the Prozac at 10 am, it's now 6:30 pm and I finally notice that my anxiety is gone. What a day. Hope tomorrow is easier. The pharmacist never got back to me :(
     
  7. Rockclimbinggirl

    Rockclimbinggirl SF climber Staff Member Safety & Support

    Give them some time. It is the weekend after all. I hope you hear back soon. Hugs
     
  8. Frances M

    Frances M Mountain Woman

    Thanks! :) This morning, I gathered my courage and tried again. This time I took the pill with some carbonated water, I figured if it makes me burp (sorry if tmi), then at least I know if it gets stuck, the air will unblock it. Well, it did work, but the burp torpedoed the pill back up....omg, what was I thinking...anyway, I downed about a pint of water and it went back down.

    The pharmacist never called, but I called back today and spoke to the head pharmacist and he said I can open the capsules and mix them with yogurt or honey or water. He said it's such a small dose it'll be fine but it might taste really bitter.

    I still want to try to conquer my fear though, so tomorrow morning, I'll try to swallow it again. At least I'm not shaking so much now. It took an hour but my anxiety went down.

    I slept like a baby last night though!!! :) :) :)