So, today it is the first mother's day I have had without my Nana being here. I didnt really think it would affect me, but it has in a strange kinda way. Like When i went out to buy the rest of my mam's gifts and card I had to keep reminding my self that I didnt need to get a card for my Nana any more. Today is one of the days through out the year that I'd make sure I seen her. I would make a great big deal about it and try and get as many as the family members to go bcoz after all... if it wasnt for her none of use would of been here, living the good lifes we did. So today I feel almost lost... Like i feel I need to go see her. But I dont wanna go to the crem by my self and I know taking my mam will only upset her. Its strange. I didnt expect to feel this way. I miss her so much.