Where to start? Never been popular. Never had any real friends at school. The few I would hang around with don't want to know me anymore. Shit job, no future, no girlfriend and never even had one. It's laughable really. Been contemplating suicide for the past three years but only recently decided it was an option. Even if I do achieve something, what's the point? I'll end up dying anyway. I never asked to live in the first place. I imagine most people's lives are good with a few bad points. Mine is all bad with a few good points. I see people happy and popular everyday enjoying life and of course I'm ALWAYS alone. No one gives a shit about me. The ones that profess to only care because it would make THEM feel bad if I did it. THEY'd cry, THEY'd be upset. Suicide is the only way out. Every day for the past year I've gone to sleep (or tried to) and WISHED I would not wake up but like torture I always do and another day of my pointless life begins. I'm just sick of it and I'm going to kill myself by jumping off a tall building. It will be quick and once I jump there's no turning back. The only thing I look forward to these days is going to sleep but even that's becoming more difficult so I look forward to permanent oblivion where I won't wake up again. It makes me laugh reading on here about some girl that's left you! Haha at least you had one! No girl wants me. I've been rejected so many times I just gave up! Thanks for letting me vent and I'm sure the site is in the best intentions and everything but what are you trying to achieve by stopping people committing suicide? You're just prolonging people's misery. It's like keeping a terminally ill person who's permanently in pain, alive. Suicide is like euthanasia in a way I suppose. I hate the way the world is set up. I have an IQ nearing 150 and have a shit job yet I applied for better ones and they won't have me. Too much nepotism and corruption. I say the happy ones are welcome to the wprld. THey're all cowards. Afraid to die. Trying to prolong their youth. I see the inevitable and see the pointlessness of life and realize there's no point in going on. it's logical really. When the "happy" ones are all depressed because they're old and nearing the end of their pointless lives, I will already be dead because I was brave enough to embrace mortality and to face the inevitable rather than running away from it the whole time like everyone else. My life is like a prison. I'm trapped inside and I can't get out. Death is my escape. Where I'm finally free from the things that made me so unhappy in the first place. Unpopular, no girl etc. So wish me luck and hope that I die quickly because believe me, I hope I do it soon.