This is the first time I talk about my depressions to someone. I choose the Internet to do with. I have all the time but cannot find the peace to understand my feelings which make it hard to explain. I live in darkness, I don't have my own room, I don't go to school, and have no friends. I only have my family, and they are not spending any money on me. I just wish if they give me what all other families give, nothing else. Not asking to get everything I want like many other teens, just want the basic things they get without asking for like CARE. Maybe you would be surprised if know that I only speak a few words in a day. My family haven't asked me why even. In my deeps and everyday, I blame them for born me. I wish if I was nothing because I'm WEAK, running away maybe would be a choice if I'm not. Have no suicidal attempts, because I'm sure this would be the only thing that I will not fail in. Like a year ago, I decided to commit suicide before we move to our new house. Now, only few months remaining, and that what make me to try talk to someone. Sorry for my bad grammar, Thanks.