Even here I feel lost. I just got here and it's confusing. I have a complicated history. I have speech problems. I hope they understand me. I have encephalopathy. I don't bother to talk much. But so many feelings in my head. I am adult but I don't act adult. I have many confusing illness my family care of me or leave me home alone. I don't like it alone. I am scared of leaving. Scared of dying but a I know a plan I can perform. I believe in God. Maybe heaven is very good. I want to be there. It is very hard here. No one listen to me. I am too much work. I'm too sick like dead already. Maybe I am. I never life of healthy. Feel confused sleepy. I will come back tomorrow when I wake up. I wish friends and encouragement. I don't know what to do. Sad if a lot of people are like me. A sad thought to cry. I hope everyone good. Nice to meet a new friend. Love! Thanks a welcome! Sorry! Tired!