First post, this is why I found this forum.

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by TheHux, Aug 19, 2010.

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  1. TheHux

    TheHux New Member

    I think I'm going to commit suicide cause this is the first time I haven't tried talking to any of my friends when I was suicidal. I am prescribed ALOT of klonopin, and I could easily get alcohol. That's all I got to do, alcohol + benzos = death. Here's why.

    About 5 years ago I started college. I started to party and have fun. I did too, I had a great time. I remember one day a couple hundred kids were sitting outside, drinking, smoking, hanging out. I literally remember that day as the greatest day in my life. I thought that maybe that was heaven. I loved everything about college, I loved learning, I loved writing, I loved debating with my professors.

    Then...

    Half way through, I was diagnosed with a very severe form of epilepsy that is progressive and getting worse. My chances of living 'till 40 are 50% according to a study on death and epilepsy. What's the point, seriously, everything is going wrong. I swear people always tell me this and that, and the only thing that stops me is the fact that my parents would die if I killed myself. But now, I really just don't care enough.

    FUCK IT ALL
     
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Hey you lots of new procedures to help people with epilepsy new meds too
    Talk to your GP a specialist okay surgery meds people live with epilepsy and work and do really well once meds are regulated if meds are not working as specialist abt surger okay new apparatus you can have inserted that will decrease the seisures. Look into every avenue before giving up hope okay.
    you can lead a normal life go back to college you can get talking to a specialist is seizures okay there is lots of new hope out there. take care
     
  3. TheHux

    TheHux New Member

    Still doesn't help. I am well researched and my neurologist is the best. As down as I am, I can recognize that. I really hate life, people are in my apartment, still waiting... might try.
     
  4. haiku

    haiku Member

    It sucks to get news like that but remember statistics given by doctors are at best estimates. It probably doens't look like it but a 50-50 chance of living are still decent odds. Take them as best you can ok and savour every minit
     
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