Hi everyone, this the first time I've really ever been open about my thoughts and if it weren't for the relative anonymity of the internet I probably wouldn't have said anything. I'm 21 years old and for the past year I've been thinking about it more and more. Much of my childhood was filled with alcoholic fighting, drug addicts and a family who's attitude towards me felt obligatory. A little over a year ago I quit smoking after 11 years and I think this may have added quite a bit to my depression. I've never been diagnosed with depression but I'm pretty confident I am given my families history of mental heath problems, schizophrenia, suicide etc. There's more but I'll leave it at that. Maybe these problems are pretty petty compared to others, but it only makes me want to get that firearms license sooner.