At least in this section of the forum it is. Well, here goes Until three days ago, nobody knew of my suicidal thoughts besides my two high school counsellors and I. High school was ending and I was in an emotional disarray. So out of a completely irrational thought, knowing all the rules of what I can say and what I can't, I told my high school counsellor that I was going to kill myself and that I had a specific plan =/ My counsellor actually gave me two choices, he would either call my mom and we would find treatment and recovery from there, or he would call the response team. I didn't want my family to know, and after arguing lots, he called the response team. Response team tells him that I should be admitted into the hospital. Well, hours later, I get admitted into the hospital through involuntary admission, and my mom finds out. I stay at the hospital overnight,then assessment in the morning, released (although they wanted to keep me inpatient). So yeah, now I have to be set up with a therapist or something, and I'm going to be put on citalopram soon. I don't really know what to make of this. Now that my family knows, should I feel relieved? Should I feel trapped? This was something that came totally unexpected. The suicidal feelings are still here, but for some reason, I'm too scared to even think about them, as if someone was going to show up at my door to drag me back to the hospital (I hated it there, by the way) I guess right now, I'm trying to adjust, but again, I don't know what's going to happen...and I guess that's the main thing that really scares me. Thanks for reading.