Well, I am a 16 year old boy who really doesn't have the greatest life. I mean my parents are wonderful and they do everything for me but everything outside my home is just too painful and even sometimes In my home I get very stressed. Recently two months ago, my best friend that I knew since birth passed away. Just to explain how close we were, my grandmas and his grandma grew up together as best friends, so did our moms and so did we. So I was pretty devastated when that happened. But that's not the reason as too why I'm depressed. It is a factor but not the main reason. I was never really the most popular or coolest kid but in 6th grade I was pretty well liked. I was friends with mostly everyone. In 7th I got into a fist fight in school with my good friend and since then I've been loosing more and more friends. I didn't really mind loosing him as a friend because he really has a negative impact on my life but anyway I started hanging out with a more popular group in 9th grade and I started loosing weight, became more attractive, basically I became conceited and cut off a lot of my friends that I thought weren't cool enough. Inevitably that came to bite me in the ass because my new popular "friends" did the same to me. So now we are at present day. It's junior year and i literally have one friend and I can already feel me and that friend drifting away. I've been feeling suicidal since 7th grade but I've never had this much pain before. Everyday I wake up miserable and wanting to die. I'm not going to commit suicide, but I do think about it way too often and the main reason why I came on here was because I have no one else to talk to. Nobody understands the pain that I go through realizing that my best friend who I thought would be here for my wedding day isn't here anymore.