I just relapsed for the first time in a long while. I found a razor in my bathroom that I guess had just been left there by one of the construction workers in our house... and it just felt so good. But I know that this is just going to get worse if my parents find out that I'm cutting again. I'm just caught between keeping the razor, which I really want to do, and throwing it away, which is what I should do. It's so good to do it again... just seeing my body with all of those designs on it... I've missed it so much.