I came into the chat last night.. usually when I go in the chat I find myself in the triggering room or just reading what everybody else writes but for once I actually told myself that I would talk... and I did. When I talked people didn't laugh or all go quiet like I thought would happen and like what does happen to me in real life. Maybe I can actually stick yo my word now and say all the things I've wanted to say. I can't even remember the last time where I saw a glimmer of hope like I do now. This may seem pathetic buy to be honest I am pretty pathetic.