So for the first time in over a year I am feeling suicidal. I started having the thoughts yesterday and sleeping all I could do is dream about killing myself. I have been calling the crisis line non stop, but lately it hasn't been helping. Perhaps because it's becoming habit, but the people I have talked to recently have been real insensitive. One told me I shouldn't be suicidal over something so small and kept asking if there was more to it. I just don't know where to go from here. I lost my job a couple days ago, but what made it horrible was how it was handled. I was one of the last people to know. I didn't even find out from the manager. I put the clues together and that's how I found out. After I did that it became obvious that half the store knew. It hurts because I didn't even have that job for a year, so when I look back a year it feels like I was in the same spot. I'm so big on looking back and looking at what I have accomplished and regarding this I can't. Now that I don't work for the company anymore I can see how horrible they treated me. I'm not one to complain. When someone says jump I always ask how high. I will always put a burden on myself to help others, but in a sense that got me fired, because they put so much on me to the point where I could not handle the stress. From what I understand the store manager reported me to HR and they wanted me fired. The store manager told me she's 'sad' because I was such a great employee. Pretty much she threw me under the bus. I think what makes this so hard is it being such a life change, since I started this job nine months ago I never had more than two days off in a row and I only had two days off in a row about 3-4 times. My life was work day after day, one day off to catch up on sleep and chores, and then go back to work day after day. I never asked for a day off because the manager would cut your hours for that. I never complained about any situation because again the manager would cut your hours for that. Looking back it feels very abusive - I was put down everyday. All the people who have been supportive are telling me I deserve better, but all I can do is sit at home and think how much I want to kill myself.