First time too deep (thoughts of self harm) **TRIGGERING**

Discussion in 'Poet's Corner' started by ThornThatNeverHeals, Mar 14, 2012.

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  1. ThornThatNeverHeals

    ThornThatNeverHeals Well-Known Member

    A simple cut in the flesh
    just a razor blade
    nothing impressive
    doesnt make a mess.

    You want so much more
    pressing deeper
    yet cant barely get any blood out
    you wat the gore.

    Steal a new blade
    a carpenter's knife
    sharp enough to suprise
    enjoying the new pain

    want to see what it can do
    want to see if you can die
    press hard, hard as you can
    if only i you knew.

    i heard the crackle
    of my flesh ripping
    and then the pop
    my face was probabally laughable.

    It started squirting
    shocking amounts of red
    endless scarlet trails
    minded more than the hurting.

    it terrified me
    just so much blood
    i wanted to die
    but im so weak.

    i made up that lie
    haha, a glass picture?
    how would i fall so?
    yet i still want to try

    i need these cuts
    i cannot stop them
    i hate myself for it
    i know nothing but.

    I have done it a few times now
    i know how to doctor them
    clean the blood up
    its just so foul

    i wish i could stop
    ive tried the fight
    but whenever i reach near the top....
    i start to slide.

    Thanks to the admin thats here for me tonight, made me remember there are ways to let it out that arent on my skin. i was planning on tearing my arm up tonight, but youve given me the inspiration for a little more fight.
  2. jamesonnk

    jamesonnk Member

    That was really really good
  3. DarknessSurroundsMe

    DarknessSurroundsMe Well-Known Member

    Thorn love that was very good but please dont follow in my footsteps and go down that road. I understand the urges well to good but I dont want you to start cutting because of where it leads. I love you hun and I am always here for you. You know that if I am not on here you have my yahoo messenger you can try and get ahold of me on there. *hugs*
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