• Apologies for the issue with a bizarre redirect on the site earlier today. There was a large server update and an error in an IP address had the traffic routing wrongly. No hacking or anything nefarious and nothing to worry about. Sorry for any stress/anxiety caused. Very best wishes - SF Admin

first time tried and failed

Status
Not open for further replies.
#1
Hi im Dean a volunteer driver for a charity based in plymouth uk we help recovering addicts and ex prisoners find a new way back into a reasonable life and help with education. 12 years ago i was one such person. Now the fallout and guilt of my own past has finally begun to crush me im drug free have been 10 years. but i felt ashamed and wanted to help others to change for the better. and perhaps pay back my debt to society. Unfortunately the guilt of my past caught up with me. I cannot socialise apart from work its the only place i go. recently ive begun to hate myself and think i hate whats happening in this world. ( sorry) So i found someone bought <Mod Edit, WildCherry> heroin and injected it all into myself in . I hoped that was going to be it. But i had been given something else not heroin and been a victim of someone probably ripping me off (sorry to use this expression) nothing happened to me. So on i go. still here. Im sorry for this but i still want to go. Thats my story. I have never spoke of this to anyone but maybe i needed to get it out cos i cant keep it in anymore its just all too much. Love and best wishes to anyone fighting depression. I hope you can work it out x
 

itmahanh

Senior Member & Antiquities Friend
#2
Hey Dean welcome to SF and thanks for sharing that. Keep posting and get it all out. It does help and members here can support you through this.
 
#3
Dean, you've really accomplished a lot by giving up drugs, and also by volunteering. You may be more heroic than you realize.

I think just about everyone does something they are ashamed of when they are an addict. Everyone makes mistakes, but you've really done a remarkable job in making things right.

Do you want to talk about what made you feel ashamed, or how your past caught up with you?

Are you seeing a therapist now, or are you in a group for recovering addicts?

I think that other recovering addicts would understand what you are going through and be able to give you some support or understanding.

I hope that you are able to get through this!
 
Status
Not open for further replies.

Please Donate to Help Keep SF Running

Total amount
$110.00
Goal
$255.00
Top