It was my first time today. And it felt so good, I never understood before how people could find it so helpful. But it is, it releases all the emotion which you can't otherwise express, all the people I hate and all those feelings locked up inside me are free. I'd tried everything, writing everything down worked to an extent, but this is the first time that I've actually felt a weight off my shoulders. I understand what it's all about. I understand it's not about being suicidal. I understand the feeling as blood runs down your skin. I hope the release never wears off.