First time

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by Neverhappyalwayssad, Apr 26, 2009.

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  1. Neverhappyalwayssad

    Neverhappyalwayssad Well-Known Member

    I just started cutting my arms with a razor blade a week ago. I don't know I thought why not, who cares anymore. To be honest It felt good. I didn't feel anypain as wierd as that sounds but it did release some kind of euphoria in me. I don't have any long sleeves shirts so I kinda just walk around with these cuts. But my cuts arnt that deep, i just kinda dragged the blade across the surface of the skin til I felt it hit and add a little pressure. I wasn't trying to kill myself when I first did it, but if that happened that would have been nice. I don't know anymore lol
  2. WildCherry

    WildCherry Staff Member ADMIN

    The fact that you didn't feel any pain isn't weird. It happens a lot with people who self-harm.

    What made you start to cut?
  3. Remedy

    Remedy Chat & Forum Buddy

    Sorry to hear you cut, it's really not a good habit and it's best if you stop while you can. :hug:
    I know you won't pay any attention to this advice, but please at least think about it ?
  4. TBear

    TBear Antiquities Friend

    A way to release the pain that no one knows - A pain left unheard

    I go to sleep with it
    I wake with it
    I walk thru my day and it is there
    Like a huge weight lodged in my chest
    Hugs, laughter do not penetrate
    Fighting, fury have no effect
    The heavy horrible unknown pain
    So I begin the motions of going thru another day

    Cutting is a way to let the unknown pain have a voice
    Ironic that the cut doesn't hurt - it somehow feels like a release.

    I didn't want to
    But I did
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