My situation: I have Psychotic/Melancholic Depressive disorder. To be a little more clear, I'm always depressed, am occasionally haunted by a voice hounding me to kill myself and even at the best of times I can't feel happiness. I've been in and out of the hospital three times, have tried countless anti-depressants and anti-psychotics and nothing really works. There's no way in hell I'm going to try Electro-convulsive therapy - the side-affects aren't worth it to me - so where does that place me? The only thing keeping me still alive is my lack of methods available. I'm in Canada and a minor, so I could never get a firearm, and I lack the willpower to do anything like drowning or hanging. I guess my reason in posting here is one final cry out to someone to give me reason to live.