Flashbacks Thursday, April 24, 2008 Is there any way of knowing, if you were raped on drugs? I keep getting these flashbacks of a time in my life, keep thinking and something adds up or doesn't add up and I have no way of proving it either way. And it's really bothering me, how would I know if it was five yrs ago? I'm not sure i want anyone irl to know. can't say it to my parents, I need to know though, and why wouldn't I question it if something happened. I had this dream one night a very very realistic dream (I was fourteen when I had this dream and at a boarding school) that was like aflashback. I was @ boarding school and I was being walked through the boarding school halls at night the light were off, and there were two of the seniors walking me with them, and they used to really pick on me a lot so I feel like something happened, and I dont know it was all skewed but i had a break and left about three days after the dream and something feel slike it happened, and i am freaking out because I keep hearing this "i told her to kill herself, i raped her" at random intervals in the day out of the blue when nothing not a care is on my mind suddenly I heard this- just recently though. It's never happened before, but when five years ago I was in bad shape and incoherent, now I dont know hwat to do. I dont want to block it out but i am afraid that the memories has been permanently been erased by the treatment and drugs. Im afraid it's true.