I am a 27 yo EX-Marine Sgt. I served in iraq, sunni triangle (triangle of death says the news channels) I go to therapy at the local VA, take piles of meds, and nothing helps. I still flashback, have nightmares every time i sleep, and suffer from severe depression and anxiety. I used to work on cars to take my mind off of things, or play video games, but now nothing hinders my flashbacks or helps with anything. i'm getting to the point where i can no longer take it. I operated well under the conditions of true battle, but when the battle is in my mind, i cannot control the outcome. this leaves me anxious, on edge, depressed, and isolated. I flashed back at the classic car restoration shop that i worked at, and my boss gave me a "week off" which i'm sure is the predecessor to being let go. I no longer have any desire to see my sons, 6 and 3, (i'm divorced, go figure) i really have no desire to do anything. I just sit in my apartment and try to think of something else but the war. Not working. I dont know if this makes any sense to anyone, i just type as i think. but i really just lost my "give a s**t" anymore. I am sick of the nightmares, waking two or three times a night in a cold sweat. I am just sick of it all. My therapy involves me sitting iwth a bunch of Vietnam vets who know nothing of what I went through, their war was three decades ago. The pills I take dont do anything, i get them changed every couple of months, but theres nothing that touches the nightmares or the anxiety. Does anyone have any ideas how to make this all go away?