I feel.. Shit. Im honestly thinking i might need meds still i came off them a few months ago after i had a slip with sh. Day before yesterday i even went to bed in the middle of the day simply to escape and switch off. Its a long time since ive done that. I dunno what im looking for really.. Love, support? *shrug* I miss trevor so much its like a hole in my heart. I reread his obituary and listened to our playlist. Which could be a contributing factor in all this.