You're fucking kidding me, right? Are words I hear every night. They eat at me from the inside out. Add tremendous guilt to painful doubt. God, I wish I could say Tomorrow I will make your day and trust you in every way But years of conditioned mistrust can't be undone by love I've left to rust. At every corner you're there to hurt me. All I see is a man begging to deceit me. Memories that bring me back to when I broke us; That time I caused the Angel to cuss. Please remember why you love me because I can't. Those soft words that comforted me, don't you recant. I promise I'll be better, I'll go farther. Don't let us dwindle into love that could have been just because I have some fears I' trying to amend. I know I'm hard- headed and beliefs of pride and strength are embedded But I will shed all my armor so that your arrow may find my heart and explore my every damned part. (Also something I wouldn't dare share anywhere else). Wrote it after a fight.