I used to be bulimic. Note 'used'. I don't purge anymore. I hate food. I hate it so much. It makes me feel ill and it makes me fat. I like feeling empty and I feel a sense of willpower when I manage to go a whole day without food. I hate myself for eating. Why do I resort to eating? I don't want to be fat, or curvy.. or even slim. I want to be THIN. Underweight, emaciated. I love the delicate look. Thin is beautiful. I'd rather be thin than obese. Obesity is the worst thing in the world. It's disgusting. It's grotesque. Sometimes I even think about taking drugs to give me huge amounts of energy and decrease my appetite. I want surgery to reduce the size of my stomach, but unfortunately I don't think the criteria (I think you have to have a BMI of 40>). YES TO THIN.