I had my therapy appointment today for the first time. I wasn't really sure what to do. I thought if I told her my suicidal feelings that she would lock me up but then again, I wanted to be truthful so that I could get the help I needed. Why were the first words out her mouth that "If you are suicidal, by law, I have to call 911" I broke down in tears immediately because I felt like she couldn't help me and that no one could help me. I was late for my appointment and she told me to come back in an hour. I'm glad I did. I got a lot of things off my chest and we talked "around" suicide. She's not stupid. She knows that I am suicidal but I kept reassuring her that I wasn't as I looked at the floor. She said I was acutely depressed and that she was going to assign me a psychiatrist for a medicine evaluation. I have another appointment on next Wednesday.