I've decided I am going to end it. I've stolen my dad's pistol and I'm going to shoot myself. But that's not all. I have also made personalized messages for about 40 of the 75 kids in my grade that i hate or have a problem with. Before I've done the deed I will put all of the messages into envolopes and seal them. I will then leave a note to give all the individuals addresed their messages. The messages reveal some deep shit that I've noticed about people as well as dispelling some misconceptions about myself. Most if not all of the people will be hurt by these messages considering that most of these people are close and unexposed to shock being in a rich private school. I've wanted to burn bridges with these people for so long and now is the time I will finally be satisfied. I will wait untill a week where nothing bad has happened to me to finally go through with it. This will keep the bitches who will probobly make fun of me from stealing credit for my death by doing something to me. It is a tad ironic that the day I die will be the one week that things will have gone well. Considering I don't have one of these weeks very often it might be awhile untill I actually do it so I will have more of a chance to think this through and perfect it more or stop altogether if somthing changes. But at least after all this I will be free.