Inner Beauty
We all once hated our complexions
For godly fear of rejections
We all once drove down in our insecurities
Not seeing the practical minorities
We all once screamed in the mirror
Not seeing the solution more clearer
We all once tried to copy others
But never seeing what we got from our mothers
We all once snapped and yelled out our hearts
Forgetting what we see for the most part
We all need too see what was passed from our mothers
To rise and be grateful for our sisters and brothers
We all need to wake up and love thyselves
Instead of wasting our time in sadness we dwell
We all need to change the sadness to glee
For all we need is inner beauty
Hello everyone it is me, summer. I wrote that poem because I felt this way and wanted to express how I felt in writing.
Growing up, the mirror was my second worst enemy while the first, was that of my face. Whenever I would look at my reflection in any source, I feel like crying honestly and even throwing up. I always told myself, “I look my dad” or “I’m too hideous to ever be at least like by human being” because I described myself as “Ugly”. To the point where my insecurities are driving my own mind down deeper than the steepest hill.
I didn’t believe how anyone ever said I was beautiful. And those ones who did mean it were always related to me and 30 years old than I was. Like my mom or something. And although, I appreciated the trying to comfort me with words it still didn’t work for me and it felt as if they were lying to me just to make me feel better about myself. And I didn’t. If anything I thought of myself as “average” a plain stain in this world. And I was insecure about my weight size, my looks, my hair, my acne, my skin tone, the dark circles under my eyes etc.
I always bullied in elementary school for not only my mental health and autism but because I was “ugly” back then. I remember these two kids talking about what if two of the students were in a relationship or some pettiness like that? And I remember one student said: “what about you and (my name)?” and the other student said “eww no”. And the students called me names like “ugly”, “Chupacabra” etc.
And not just other kids do this. Adults too look at me and go “eh” wow. What an example your setting for our youth with your empty gestures and words instead of trying to help our young kids and teens build and love themselves instead of degrading themselves like their nothing. Way to go.
And speaking of adults calling me ugly there is one in particular, my aunt. Yes the one I have mentioned numerous times of my aunt and her name calling toward me and her nasty words like calling me ugly and that I have body dysmorphia and because im ugly I caused bad things to happen in peoples lives. And because of that I’ve been insecure about myself. So insecure about myself to the point where I became jealous of other “gorgeous” women and girls my age.
And whenever I would see other “gorgeous” girls my age or other “gorgeous” women, I feel as if I don’t even belong on earth. I feel like an alien and that I just hated myself down into the core of my soul.
But there is a way to change that feeling of being ugly. To all of those who feel ugly, I am betting my life to you on this that there are a numerous ways of changing yourself and bringing yourself to at least an 9 out of 10 In your own eyes in looks. If your face has some severe deformity, then major facial reconstruction is an option as it exists for on of these very reasons like this. Listen, I am here to help those in need and I am a fellow friend here on this forum at least trying my best to give the best advice I can.
You can bring yourself up like just how I am currently, to the point where your confident enough to where your finally happy with yourself off of things you yourself can fix. What I mean by this is look at the things you don’t like about yourself. Take out what looks bad to you and put in what looks good to you. And that is what im doing currently for example:
I have acne – im fixing that
My hair is dry and permed – im fixing that
I have dark circles under my eyes – im fixing that
Im over 140 lbs for someone 5’2 – im fixing that
My teeth are chipped – im fixing that
My teeth are uncleaned – im fixing that
My nose looks dirty – im fixing that
And lasty in the past my personality wasn’t great – but I fixed that most importantly
And there are non-physical ways you can do to love yourself more what I mean by this is in another post, I explained how “self love does a lot”. What you do is you get up every morning and you go the mirror and recite: “I am beautiful” “I am loved” “I am amazing” and most importantly you should be saying to yourself: “Everyday in everyway, I am getting better and better and better” that’s what a wise man told me.
And no one is really ugly we just live in a society where a lot of people unfortunately, don’t look at what kind of personality people actually have. A lot of people unfortunately, only care about looks
“No one is born ugly, we're just born in a judgmental society” – Kim Namjoon
Remember, you are what you think and what you think is what you become and believe. And if you keep thinking “I am ugly”, “Im hideous to be liked by another person” you are going to believe that of yourself instead you should think: “I am beautiful” and “I am loved by people regardless of my looks but by the content of my character and personality”
I really really hope this helped people at least a 1% out of 100. I genuinely care about peoples well being and I don’t want to see you fall in that sinking ship that most people can’t seem to get out of.
I believe in you and can’t wait to see what you’ve become after what you decided to change, beautiful.
~ Summer
We all once hated our complexions
For godly fear of rejections
We all once drove down in our insecurities
Not seeing the practical minorities
We all once screamed in the mirror
Not seeing the solution more clearer
We all once tried to copy others
But never seeing what we got from our mothers
We all once snapped and yelled out our hearts
Forgetting what we see for the most part
We all need too see what was passed from our mothers
To rise and be grateful for our sisters and brothers
We all need to wake up and love thyselves
Instead of wasting our time in sadness we dwell
We all need to change the sadness to glee
For all we need is inner beauty
Hello everyone it is me, summer. I wrote that poem because I felt this way and wanted to express how I felt in writing.
Growing up, the mirror was my second worst enemy while the first, was that of my face. Whenever I would look at my reflection in any source, I feel like crying honestly and even throwing up. I always told myself, “I look my dad” or “I’m too hideous to ever be at least like by human being” because I described myself as “Ugly”. To the point where my insecurities are driving my own mind down deeper than the steepest hill.
I didn’t believe how anyone ever said I was beautiful. And those ones who did mean it were always related to me and 30 years old than I was. Like my mom or something. And although, I appreciated the trying to comfort me with words it still didn’t work for me and it felt as if they were lying to me just to make me feel better about myself. And I didn’t. If anything I thought of myself as “average” a plain stain in this world. And I was insecure about my weight size, my looks, my hair, my acne, my skin tone, the dark circles under my eyes etc.
I always bullied in elementary school for not only my mental health and autism but because I was “ugly” back then. I remember these two kids talking about what if two of the students were in a relationship or some pettiness like that? And I remember one student said: “what about you and (my name)?” and the other student said “eww no”. And the students called me names like “ugly”, “Chupacabra” etc.
And not just other kids do this. Adults too look at me and go “eh” wow. What an example your setting for our youth with your empty gestures and words instead of trying to help our young kids and teens build and love themselves instead of degrading themselves like their nothing. Way to go.
And speaking of adults calling me ugly there is one in particular, my aunt. Yes the one I have mentioned numerous times of my aunt and her name calling toward me and her nasty words like calling me ugly and that I have body dysmorphia and because im ugly I caused bad things to happen in peoples lives. And because of that I’ve been insecure about myself. So insecure about myself to the point where I became jealous of other “gorgeous” women and girls my age.
And whenever I would see other “gorgeous” girls my age or other “gorgeous” women, I feel as if I don’t even belong on earth. I feel like an alien and that I just hated myself down into the core of my soul.
But there is a way to change that feeling of being ugly. To all of those who feel ugly, I am betting my life to you on this that there are a numerous ways of changing yourself and bringing yourself to at least an 9 out of 10 In your own eyes in looks. If your face has some severe deformity, then major facial reconstruction is an option as it exists for on of these very reasons like this. Listen, I am here to help those in need and I am a fellow friend here on this forum at least trying my best to give the best advice I can.
You can bring yourself up like just how I am currently, to the point where your confident enough to where your finally happy with yourself off of things you yourself can fix. What I mean by this is look at the things you don’t like about yourself. Take out what looks bad to you and put in what looks good to you. And that is what im doing currently for example:
I have acne – im fixing that
My hair is dry and permed – im fixing that
I have dark circles under my eyes – im fixing that
Im over 140 lbs for someone 5’2 – im fixing that
My teeth are chipped – im fixing that
My teeth are uncleaned – im fixing that
My nose looks dirty – im fixing that
And lasty in the past my personality wasn’t great – but I fixed that most importantly
And there are non-physical ways you can do to love yourself more what I mean by this is in another post, I explained how “self love does a lot”. What you do is you get up every morning and you go the mirror and recite: “I am beautiful” “I am loved” “I am amazing” and most importantly you should be saying to yourself: “Everyday in everyway, I am getting better and better and better” that’s what a wise man told me.
And no one is really ugly we just live in a society where a lot of people unfortunately, don’t look at what kind of personality people actually have. A lot of people unfortunately, only care about looks
“No one is born ugly, we're just born in a judgmental society” – Kim Namjoon
Remember, you are what you think and what you think is what you become and believe. And if you keep thinking “I am ugly”, “Im hideous to be liked by another person” you are going to believe that of yourself instead you should think: “I am beautiful” and “I am loved by people regardless of my looks but by the content of my character and personality”
I really really hope this helped people at least a 1% out of 100. I genuinely care about peoples well being and I don’t want to see you fall in that sinking ship that most people can’t seem to get out of.
I believe in you and can’t wait to see what you’ve become after what you decided to change, beautiful.
~ Summer