I haven't posted here in a while, cause my life hasn't got to the point of leaving yet, as I was still hoping things will change. It really hasn't. And this world around me sucks and its either me leaving soon or me doing something bad. You see I'm not sure if God helps people like us on these forums, cause in the end it goes back to the same old shit. Therefore because of this, I dont think God has anything to do with helping people change their life around. Sure sometimes things may look like things are turning around, but something of of nowhere happens, and it returns to the same problems. Sick of people saying "Don't worry, God will answer you" .......... real easy for someone who doesnt have the same problems to say that. You see things like getting into a relationship really won't bother me but because going out the house to places like stores, work, movies, etc and seeing other people into relationships, good or bad .......... it starts to feel like Im out of place around people. So why I cant get the same life??? "Nah just be happy you are living. Know your role in life in which you have been given." some will say. You know maybe I would stay and life. But with the way the world is (broken relationships, people having kids out of wedlock, people with no jobs, murders, and other crazy shit) .......... maybe this world isn't a good place to stay alive.