Right I have gone and smashed my phone through an unfortunate event. Apparently I'm a nice guy and good looking, which makes me glad as I do try my hardest to keep appearances up and always put others before myself, I'm emotionally tough I guess, I can take alot of crap and still be smiling at the end of the day. Alas the the point in my life has come where the straw has broke the camels back. Through braking my phone I am temporarily out of contact from a few friends. Now this has made me realise how alone I am. No one has made the effort to talk to me through Facebook or meet up and do something together. I guess I am just at the back of peoples mind unless my name pops up on the phone they have with them 24/7. So I am sat here on a Friday night, single and by the looks of it friendless. Yes I'm sure once I have a new phone I will have my old friends again but I just don't have that person in my life who will just come and chill with me. Girls I do meet say I'm a good catch yet I remain single as I'm a nice guy. I know alot of you reading this say man the *beep* up but I just feel shit. I'm nothing special to anyone. In reality if I was to die I may have a decent turnout at my funeral but the next week, life for them, would be normal. I do try but I guess luck just isn't on my side. Perhaps I am destined to be in the shadows of life, watching and waiting. As mentioned before I will always but others before me, you would think that this makes me respected and loved. In reality , no. Maybe my sole purpose is to help others along and perhaps I should take my happiness from those who I help and the happiness in their lives. They say life is a bit like a coin toss, it can either work out good or bad. I guess when destiny flipped my coin it just landed on its side and will forever wobble one way and the other until someone special pushes it the right way or death takes me. Thankyou for listening to me moan, I have contemplated death but I'd like to think there is hope to find someone special. I'll keep fighting.