I just keep thinking about my last suicide attempt which is more than a year ago. Because it was the worst one yet and the most traumatizing, having lived through it is torture mentally. I have no closure as to what happened from the time I was unconscious, on life support, and even waking up to not know the extent of what happened to me. I want to thank EMS, the doctors, the nurses, my caring neighbors, and my family. However, I'm so sad that I did this to everybody and I can't seem to move on. My social worker says that I keep asking myself questions that will never be answered and I just need to be glad that I survived it all. I need to move on and stop reminiscing about the past. Easier said than done. I'm so traumatized still and I beat myself up in the head for ever doing what I did. The irony is that I wished I was successful so that I won't have to remember the past, which is not much since I was unconscious the whole time. Is this PTSD? How am I going to move on from this? I am really stuck and I feel so sad. Can anyone relate to me or have been there? How did you all cope and carry on? Is it going to get better? Again, I'm asking questions, but I just keep wondering about it all. What should I do?