I don't think the anti depressents work anymore. I have been relapsing lately. I hate my life. I get yelled at and cussed out by my professor at college. I have made it to the age of 22 and that is good enough. Inside I am dark and cold, on the outside I pretend to be ok. I want to die like so many others. I attempted 2 weeks ago and woke up miserable and angry. I was pretty crappy. I am in a dark hole.