Ok I love my computer, not physicaly of course lol, but it fills in a huge empty void in my life. As some of you know I have very bad gynecological problems which effect me physicaly and mentally. Just recently I've been getting long bouts of anxiety which is more like something trying to make me do things I don't want to do. Some of these things revolve around my computer, I'm (unfortunatly) pretty tech savvy & know where to go & where not to go on a computer. These 'bouts of anxiety' are like having a rat gnawing away inside your chest telling you it won't go away unless you do such & such a thing to the computer. It's odd, but it's bad. I've even had to ask my boyfriend to refuse to pay to fix it if I muck it up, which he hates doing as he would of course pay for it if I couldn't. So far I've resisted most of it, but it's so hard, it's both my physical problem, my Aspergers & god knows what else going on. I also fell out big time with my main online friend, he vanished and I've not spoke to him for days. All I do on here now is google shit & play RPG's. So it could be that now he's vanished I don't have a main reason for being on the PC. I can't live without it though, and if I don't deal with this shit I will mess it up. Sometimes I can't sit down here without pouring with sweat & shaking because my fucked up brain tells me I must try clicking something or whatever. This has become another 'monthly' symptom to add to a 30 odd strong list of issues I have related to my period. The doctor has finally reffered me to the psychologists, he didn't beleive my problem was physical, but I'm hoping once I tell them, they might be able to dicipher what is mental and what is not. Hopefully they'll help get me to the right medical department for it. It's a small step I spose.