I dont know quite how to put this- but......umm. I have only been a member for a little while now. At first it seemed to be helping me to talk and vent about problems or suicidal thoughts out onto this forum and then people reply with either shared experiences, advice or engouragement. Now I see that sharing doesnt really make me feel any better,- its kinda worse...Maybe Im not doing it right, I think the forum itself is a blessing for lots of people, so Im not saying anything bad about that at all. I dont know- I think Ive just lost the plot a little bit with everything right now. Im in counselling as well, and I feel like Im just putting on an act for the counseller, like I dont talk about the extent of whats really happening in my life, because Im afraid that he'll send me to a mental hospital or something else. anyway bye for now.