So glad I found this forum. Some place I can talk about my suicide without fearing that I'll get put IP. So, I have nothing to live for and I am worthless. I have bipolar disorder and am so depressed. I am giving myself 3 weeks and then I am going to decide if I should kill myself. I am giving therapy a little time to work. It's an Intensive Outpatient Program. I have been in regular therapy for my entire adult life, and I am 37. My pdoc said that I am suffering from a chronic illness with recurring episodes every 6-18 months. That these episodes last for up to 12 weeks. I can't work, I am going on disability forever. I will never be able to achieve my dreams and goals. They told me "You can do anything you set your mind to. And You can be anything you want to be if you just work hard enough." Well it's all a bunch of horse shit. I work damn hard and I am still here, in this black hellhole. So, I am looking forward to the end of the three weeks. I will have peace one way or the other.