Four years ago I tried to kill myself at work. I was triggered by the one year anniversary of a trauma that happened at work. A colleague interrupted me, but didn't understand what he saw. He saw only that I was sobbing, and I left and went to another room for the remainder of the day. I have thought about this every day, every hour, every minute for four years, sorry that I didn't finish, and unable to complete the act. Living and dying are very painful, but dying will make this pain stop.