Every time I look in the mirror I hate myself I little more. I've always been like this. But the older I got the more people said something about it. I don't want to be like this. When someone's over weight people still may say something but (almost) everyone knows its wrong. When someone's "underweight" it seems to me like the they think it's okay. I have a healthy b.m.i. but that doesn't mean a thing to them. Apparently I'm "anorexic", twig, a freak, and I starve myself. In my head I just think wow I didn't know I went to school with so many fricken doctors. "Well why don't you eat more?" Would you tell someone overweight to just eat less??? I eat 1 1/2 times the normal amount of normal amount of calorie intake, so don't tell me to just eat more. I asked my doctor if she could give me something to make me gain weight, she told me that the depression medication I was taking should help. Well it didn't of course. And my new doctor won't give me anything. So I guess I'm stuck being an anorexic freak through the rest of high school.