I am freaking out today.... My husband has Bi-polar and has been fighting for over 20 years. This year has been particularly bad. I am scared to death for him and for me. He has suicidal thoughts for ever and has attempted a few tmes. He has been cutting again for a few months now. It has been years since he last did. We have had our struggles before but this time I don't think I can help him pull out of it. I am scared for him, for me, and our kids. Not that he will harm us, but that we will be left without him. He is our world and he does not see it. He thinks we will be better off without him. That we will be able to be happy once his struggle is not ours. I know that he is not always rational and I work around it, but this time, I don't know that I can help see it.